Malu Lani Farm

I have not yet decided if I will leave the page named as such but I do know that below you will find the missing pieces of our hearts, though never forgotten are down below....

They are placed in the order of which we have lost them.  Please click on the photos if you'd like more information on them.  They were loved and cherished and the spots that are now empty are also empty in our hearts.  Below you will find a song that gives me inspiration as well as reminds me of what we have lost at the same time.

Broken

 (the lyrics as sung by Lindsey Haun on Broken Bridges the movie)

Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the sky
Then it starts to rain, my defenses hit the ground
And they shatter all around, so open and exposed
I found strength in the struggle
Face to face with my trouble

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken

Little girl don't be so blue
I know what you're going through
Don't let it beat you up
Heaven knows that getting scars
Only makes you who you are
Only makes you who you are
No matter how much your heart is aching
There is beauty in the breaking
Yeah

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken

Better days are gonna find you once again
Every piece will find its place

When you're broken, when you're broken

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken
Oh, when you're broken
When you're broken

Please click on the photo below to read our dedication to our daughter Ke'ala.

She never had a chance to really live life but she sure taught us more than we could have ever hoped to learn.

We very luckily found this fantastic breeder in a lil town in Kentucky.  There Royal was born.  He was named Royal because of his royal bloodlines and his royal like behavior.  He was so easy to train and handle, he made me look forward to each and every day with him.  He was always sweet and willing and always gave me as much as he could.   For those of you who know me, I don't have geldings, but I didn't care if this guy was going to be a stallion or a gelding, because he had the temperment to be either, and I loved him beyond words.  He helped me focus on something other than the loss of our first daughter.  And also took my mind off my many surgeries and sicknesses while I was pregnant with our second.  He is missed every day since he has passed.  And while I am sure God is taking good care of him, I look forward to hopefully meeting with him again.  Rest in peace lil guy and thanks for giving me and showing me so much. 

"Harry" was my wedding present from my over indulgent husband.  And I loved him beyond anything else but I gotta tell ya it didn't start that way.   You will find Harry also on the stallions page.  He'll always be the big man in my life.  God knows how much I loved him, and I know he is in good hands now.

This is Desi.  And her second daughter Dolly.  And while I would love to tell you all the lovely wonderful things about this great mare, right now, the hurt is too new and too painful.  We laid her to rest on May 08, 2009.  Desi gave her life bringing her son DJ into the world.  I will be shortly placing photos of him online.  I will update this and make up her page as soon as I can.  Its hard to type when you can't see what you are typing!